I’ve been having those old feelings again that what I’m doing (job wise) is not what I’m really meant to be doing. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very grateful to have a job and a steady income that will, while only barely, pay my rent, bills, and food. I go to work every day, do what is expected, actually use skills I was taught, but in a very big way it is the exact opposite of what I want to do.
That lofty goal that I believed in so much ever since I was a Sophomore in high school is still inside of me. The move down to LA was to move myself closer to that goal, and now that I am here finding positions available for that exact job I find myself at a standstill. This era of applying for jobs online has complicated matters. Yes the job I want, the exact one is right there on your site for all to apply. Yes, I have applied. Now what? There is no one to contact, there is no way of knowing if my resume has made it out of the great void of the web and onto someones screen for review. I sit. I wait. The job remains posted. I remain stagnate and stale.
That becomes the problem I must fix.
While subscribing to Out Magazine the other night I thought I’d take a gander at the Career listings for the LA area. Well there was one; a listing for an Editor position at Out Traveler. It sounded perfect, traveling for work, photos, blogging, just experiencing new things. Slap of reality time. Besides this blog…and lets face it I’ve done an amazing job at keeping this thing up… I haven’t written anything of substance in years. I also realized that while I subscribe to the full gamut of Conde Nast publishing, I was using those for photo inspiration and rarely, if ever, read the articles. It was like a very cold glass of water being thrown in my face. I know about photography, and not just photography, I know what makes a quality photograph. I know how to conceptualize a photo from something I am given. I have a whole list of excellent, young, passionate, creative photographers and stylists in my network. The job of a Photo Editor for a publication just fits me.
Honestly I just went and re read the job qualification for the Out Traveler position and I’m not sure what was holding me back before. I’m sure it was that old familiar voice of failure in the back of my head.
The Photo Editor position I mentioned above was at Disney. Let face it, we all know I’d die of happiness if I got that job haha.
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A few notes here at the end-1) I’ve left the comments open on here, but my inbox is so flooded with spam I’m thinking about turning it off.
2) Mallory and I will very shortly be starting our Food Vlog. We are working on a name, making some videos, and different things so stay tuned.
3) @jcharlesphoto and you should find me on twitter and Instagram!
